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I want to write about faith,
about the way the moon rises
over cold snow, night after night,
faithful even as it fades from fullness,
slowly becoming that last curving
and impossible
slither of light before the final darkness.
But I have no faith myself
I refuse it the smallest entry.
Let this then, my small poem,
like a new moon. slender and barely open,
be the first prayer that opens me to faith.
(David Whyte)
I want to write about faith. I want to write about that quality of heart, mind and soul that is open to the
more of what is possible; to the more of who I am and who I might become as a human-being in love with the
world. I want to write about this time of year, the darkest time of the year when the sun is obscured by cloud and rain, when the
earth herself conspires to obstruct the suns warmth from penetrating my frozen land and heart.
I want to write
about faith, about the way the moon rises over cold snow, night after night. I want to write about this time of the world, this
time of history when faith shrinks in the grip of a looming shadow. Hatred, revenge, despair is on the ascendancy. War, genocide and
geocide bring the planet and the human race to survivals brink.
I want to write about faith, about the way the
moon rises over cold snow, night after night, faithful even as it fades from fullness, slowly becoming that last curving and impossible
slither of light before the final darkness. I want to write about faith as I look into the terror of a final darkness. I no
longer know on what or whom I call for help. Do I call to Jesus, to Christ? Do I call to God, to the intelligent force that brought
the universe into being? Do I call on the wind, the sun, the moon, the earth, the stars? Do I call on the light? Or do I call on the
darkness itself, the unknowing, faltering cry of my own heart? There is only the calling, the crying out. The object of my longing
recedes, a transitory mist evaporating against an open horizon: all that space; all that open, open space.
But I have
no faith myself. I refuse it the smallest entry. Instead I attempt to secure myself. I can feel the way my walls are built.
Beginning in fear I attempt to secure my borders and nurture an ideal of self-sufficiency, or isolation, or control. Within my gates
idols are carved by my hand, by the hands of family, tribe, country, religion, ideology. I sever myself from the whole. This severing
could be called sin. This rending away from the web of the real could be called delusion. This sundering of my radical
inter-connectedness could be called samsara. It could be called faithlessness.
Philosopher and theologian,
Raimon Panikkar describes faith as existential openness towards transcendence, or if this seems too loaded, more simply as
existential openness. He says that the experience of faith is primal for the human being. It is constitutive of what
it means to be human. It is not to be identified with belief. I can wall myself off with my beliefs. I can make of my
religion an exclusive claim to truth. I can make of my ideology an absolute right to rule. I can war and kill and do violence in
defense of my beliefs. And in the process I can refuse faith the smallest entry.
From time immemorial, during
this darkest time of the year, the winter solstice, human beings have celebrated the promise and the presence of the Light, even in its
hiddeness. They have proclaimed that in the midst of darkness a light shines forth. And if we could free ourselves from the tyranny of
the literal and open ourselves to the power of symbol and the truth of myth, we might find the possibilities of a new way of being
human dawning this very day in the birth of a divine child; revealing divinity in the very depths of our human nature, reverberating
through our entire cosmic body.
It seems to me imperative that, in faith, we open to the possibility that we humans can
change. Yes, war and violence and bloodletting have marked our path for millennia. And almost every war can trace its roots to
religious belief and moral justification. It seems we have made little progress in quelling our human desire for power, domination and
revenge. And for the non-combatants of the world we appear to be in an accelerated regression. For example, in World War I 90% of
those killed were military; in World War II, 50%; and in Viet Nam, only 10% (90 % of those killed were civilians). One can only
imagine what the outcome of the present war in Iraq will be on the civilian population.
It is clear that we must change.
As Panikkar asserts nothing short of a radical metanoia, a complete turning of mind, heart and spirit will meet
todays needs. As Thomas Berry says we must reinvent the human. If we want to survive, if we want to leave a
habitable planet for the generations to come, we must turn in faith toward that open horizon of possibility where we can
envision ourselves living in peace and harmony, with freedom and justice across every culture and religion, for every creature and
person.
In David Whytes poem, the moon rises against an open horizon by which the moon itself becomes intelligible.
The snow-covered landscape is illumined by its light through the graciousness of the unseen, which lies beyond appearance. And then
there is that moment when that last curving and impossible light is itself absorbed into the darkness. This is the moment in which I
find myself, at this time in my life, at this time in our world. The light no longer appears, nor the objects illumined by the light.
I am left looking into all that open, open space. I am left with my bare awareness, my naked longing, and the infinite possibilities
of the new, the more, inherent in the spaciousness before me. Let this then, my small poem, like a new moon, slender and barely
open, be the first prayer that opens me to faith.
Sources and Recommended Reading:
Where Many Rivers Meet, poems by David Whyte, Many Rivers Press, 1990;
Cultural Disarmament, The Way To Peace, by Raimon Panikkar, Westminister John Knox Press, 1995;
A Dwelling Place For Wisdom, by Raimon Panikkar, Westminster John Knox Press, 1993;
The Cosmotheandric Experience: Emerging Religious Consciousness, by Raimon Panikkar, Orbis books, 1993; Myth, Faith and
Hermeneutics, by R Panikkar, Paulist Press, 1979
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